Do you ever find yourself running scenarios through your head for a solution to an issue you’re dealing with, all the while thinking that they MUST be coming from the Spirit because, after all, the ideas sound like they’d work. Right?
Do you ever know deep down, the ideas are coming from your own hopes and dreams and aren’t part of God’s plan for you at this moment? If ever?
Do you ever secretly hope that God will somehow take your advice and that your ideas and His plan will end up being one-and-the-same? Maybe?
Do you ever make an agenda for your life then ask God to bless it, like I do?
This is where I have been.
Inside my own head.
Wishing and hoping for things that no longer exist and will never be again.
Why do I do that?
Why do we do that?
Is it because we like being used, abused, and manipulated for someone else’s own gain?
OR
Is it because the pain of our new normal is too much to bear and it was easier to live in denial and dysfunction because it was comfortable?
After struggling with these, and several other questions, for the past few weeks, I was finally able to quiet my own thinking enough to hear God speaking to my heart.
And, by the way, God is speaking all the time…my problem is I’m too busy talking AT Him and telling Him MY agenda that it drowns out His still small voice.
When the myriad of thoughts stopped captivating my mind, I heard Him speak to me.
Just be because I Am.
Just BE because I AM.
Five simple words that changed the entire course of my thought process…
Just be still.
Just be held.
Just be ready.
Just be willing.
Just be surrendered.
Just be prayerful.
Just be present.
Just be comforted.
I Am…your Hiding Place…
I Am…your Provision…
I Am…your Sustainer…
I Am…your Confidant…
I Am…your Refuge…
I Am…your Best Friend…
I Am…your Peace…
I Am…your Future…
I Am…your Helper…
I Am…your Healer…
Just be because I Am.
This way of thinking has completely changed the way I see this new season in my life.
It’s been almost a year now since God snatched me away from life as I knew it and started me on this journey of singleness with Him. It hasn’t been an easy road nor has it been without a lot of tears and pain. However, it has been the most blessed time I’ve experienced since giving my heart and my life to Him.
Although I do not understand entirely what is happening during this season, nor WHY it is happening, I do know that God orchestrated it especially for me. He knows me better than I know me. He knows I am “MORE than a conqueror through Him” (Romans 8:37). He knows that “all things work together for good for those who are called according to His purpose.” (Romans 8:28).
And, since He chose this season for me to walk through, I will not run from it. I will not ask Him to take it away and I will not take shortcuts. I will walk through this season WITH HIM. Even the times He has to carry me for a little while because “when I am weak, He makes me strong” (2 Corinthians 12:10).
Just be because I Am.
I will BE present in this pain.
I will BE strengthened in this pain.
I will BE held in this pain.
I will BE comforted in this pain.
And I will BE healed from this pain.
Not my plans. Not my agenda. Not my ideas. Not my hopes and dreams. Not my myriad of “great” scenarios.
I want His plans. I want His agenda. I want His great scenarios for my future. I want whatever He wants for me.
Because I am His.
Because I am chosen.
Just BE.
Because I Am.
All you need.